July 14th, 2010

You know... Going to College today really triggered something. Since the moment I entered and the moment I exited, it`s like a sudden ephipany happened in my head. It`s my time to shine. Growing up, I remember having so many dreams, so much hope. Hah, I used to want to be a chef, I used to want to be a professional skater, I used to be wild, I used to be free. Those dreams growing up eventually died or were crushed. It seems like nothing in my life has had great significants. I can`t exactly find my meaning in life. Where I belong.

But lately, life well... really seems to be coming together. As one life ends, another is born. This is the process of reincarnation. When Highschool ended; I moved, I lost my job, I forgot friends, my old life had faded away. But from that light my old life gave, it awoke a new light hidden in the darkness of my mind. I feel like things are really starting to come together, and that I am not only starting to see these changes through my eyes now, but I see them through everyday life. I don`t feel like I am the same person I was even a month ago. I look at things now in different colours. Now that I have my main dream on the table, I finally refuse to let that go. I plan to pursuit my dream no matter what. Highschool was my step to finding it, college my step to finally making dream reality...

I hav`nt felt this happy, this adventurous in a very long time. I hope that someday, you'll feel this happy with your life eventually. It is a vigorous feeling throught your heart and your mind. I AM doing something with my life, I WANT to do something worth meaning with my life. I WILL achieve the life I want. Only if I pursue it with everything I have in me.

Gandhi said, “Almost everything you do will seem insignificant, but it is important that you do it"
and I feel this way. Almost everyday I have lived I feel insignificant to others; to this world. I feel insignificant to the dream I want to pursue, but it is important. I will no longer give up like I always have, I will do it.

Smiles don`t last forever, but cherish them well they can. Create new smiles out of old ones; life out of life.

I plan to be successful one day. Now is my time.

I am prepared to accept my new life.